Tuesday, 13 September 2011
20:32

Alhamdulillah yah akhirnya laptop gue bisa connect to wi fi juga.. sesuatu banget yah.. wakaka
Syahrini abiez.

Happy 8 months old to my lovely kids Iggy and Pixel!!! Wakkaka. Sebentar lagi mereka akan menginjak usia dewasa hiks, aku terharu melihat mereka tumbuh makin besar :') seperti ibu yang melepas kepergian anaknya untuk kuliah.. *lho

Curhat bentar
Benci banget, baru brp hari ga puasa aja berat gue udah balik ke normal hmm sebenernya gue jg udah bakal ngira bakal kejadian gini sih.. Tapi ganyangka aja bakal secepat ini ya Tuhan. Apaansi ya gue seakanakan ngomongin ini kayak ngomongin drama aja hahaah. Tapi bener lho, akiak sedih banget T_T
Kayaknya harus membulatkan tekad baru agar tidak makan mulu nih ck. Shitmen i won't let this happen no no no.

Sekarang laagi addict ke banyak lagu nih.
Salah satunya yaitu: The A Team by Ed Sheeran. Akustikan gitu, trus pokoknya lagunya adem deh wakak. "It's too cold outside for angles to fly, the angle would die covered in white." sumpe lagunya ga sadis kok, lagunya bener2 adem deh hehe.
Salah duanya itu: Called Out In The Dark by Snow Patrol <3<3 xixixi lagunya sih mnrt gue asik~ tapi sepertinya tisya dan caca menyuarakan hal yang berbeda wakak "We are listening and we're not blind. This is your life, this is your time" \m/ Gue suka aja pas si vokalisnya nyanyiin bagian this is ur life this is ur time-nya itu. Terdengar... menohok sekali huahaha.
Salah tiganya: The Death Of You And Me by Noel Gallagher High Flying Birds. Sebenernya best part yg paling gue suka bukan ini, tapi yang verse pertamanya: ""High tide, life is getting faster and no one has the answer. I try to face the day though, in a new way."High tide, summer in the city, the kids are looking pretty. But isn't it a pity that the sun is followed by the thunder, with thoughts of going under and is it any wonder? Why the sea is calling out to me? I spend my whole life running from people who would be the death of you and me cause I can feel the storms cloud sucking up my soul." wakaka itu sihbkn verse pertamanya doang, tapi ud pake reff pertamanya haha. Mnrt gue lagunya noel ini masih berbau oasis. Mgkn karena emang intinya oasis itu noel kali ya wakak sotau amat gue 3-|

Selain lagu2 itu, gue juga lagi tergilagila sama lagu2nya Seabear yg dr album The Ghost That Carried Us Away. Lagunya kyyyyaa banget wakak. Lagunya.... adem hahhaah! Lagu2 yang gue suka pasti gue bilang adem lahh. Orang gue anaknya adem *aseeek padahal maksudnya aja gue gangerti apa.
Gue tadi juga udah lama ga dengerin A Certain Romance si Arctic Monkeys trus langsung fall in love all over again deh <3<3 emang paling oke itu lagu daaah. Nyanyi dulu gimana? sip? Taarrreeek maaang~ *anjir ini alay banget*
"And there's the truth that they can't see. They'd probably like to throw a punch at me. And if you could only see them, then you would agree. Agree that there ain't no romance around there.
You know, oh it's a funny thing you know. We'll tell 'em if you like. We'll tell 'em all tonight. They'll never listen. Because their minds are made up. And course it's all okay to carry on that way.
But I said no! Oh no! Well you won't get me to go! Not anywhere, not anywhere. No, i won't go! Oh no, no.
Well over there there's friends of mine. What can I say, I've known 'em for a long long time. And they might overstep the line, but i just cannot get angry in the same way. No not in the same way. So not in the same way. Oh no, oh no no."

Trus kata Al ada lagunya The Kooks yang keren banget, judulnya The Junk Of A Heart kalo ga salah. Pengen donlod, tapi sayangnya memory card gue rusak, jadinya gue gabisa lah itu mendonlod segala macam lagu hiks. Jadinya cuman bisa numpang dengerin dr web wakaka. Agak ngenes sebenernya. Tapi ndak apalah. Mending nyanyi Dear John yuk buat penutup.

"Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone. Don't you think I was too young to be messed with, the girl on the dress cried the whole way home. Dear John, I see it all know it was wrong. Don't you think 19's too young to be played with, the girl in the dressed wrote you a song. You should've known."

A Year Has Gone By

Sunday, 11 September 2011
23:54

Mules di tengah malem gini emang paling gaasik.
Besok Senen, semua sekolah udah mulai pada masuk, emake udah wanti wanti gue supaya ga tidur malem, and yet here I am, still berkutat dengan laptop. Mau ngapain? mnrt lo? curhat lah masbro.

Gue sengaja masih bangun jam segini sebenarnya ada alasan.
Besok atau bisa dibilang kurang dari 10 menit lagi, gue bakal setaunan sama Arsya. Dan beneran banget waktunya emang pas. Karena gue jadian sama dia emang pas tengah malem gini hahah.

Akhir akhr ini gue suka merasa kehilangan dia. Mungkin itu wajar, tapi kali ini kata hilangnya bener bener ditekankan. Karena hilang yang gue maksud adalah gone without leaving trace. Ini hal yang paling gue takutin bakal kejadian. Dan ternyata sekarang bakal kejadian. Bahkan gue berusaha men-deny hal ini. Menyedihkan banget ya gue haha. Makin berjalannya waktu, gue makin merasa kehilangan pegangan dari arsya. Gue benci banget kalo lagi ngerasa begitu.

Monday, 12 September 2011
00:00

*sibuk ngetik bbm mau ngucapin HA ke arse*

*sent*

Btw, udah 00:19, tadi ud ngucapin ke bbmnya Arsya. Semoga mama atau adeknya pokoknya yang nanti baca ga merasa gue aneh deh._. Agak malu sebenernya bbm ke bbm Arsya gitu. Selain karena gue bbminnya dgn penuh cinta #eeaaa gue juga mau bilang hal yang gue mau cuman arsya yang tau. Susah emang. Tapi gimana lagi... Bahkan gue ud bbm ke arsya kalo gue kehilangan jejaknya. Mungkin gue gapantes bilang gitu ke bbmnya, gue tau. Ibunya juga mgkn sedih kali ya gue bbm gitu. Tapi gimana dong... gue sempet stres geregetan pgn ke dukun gara2 ngebet pgn ktm arsya tau ga. Gila ye wakak. Cuman kepikiran kok, bukan niat. ketemu arsyanya sih niat, ketemu dukunnya yang males. males kena semburnya itu.

Tadi pas bbmin arsya gue sempet pause lama haha. Gue kehilangan kata2. Gue gatau mau bilang apa ke dia. Akhirnya gue malah ngmg gapenting dan muter2 yang intinya cuman satu "Saya sayang kamu, arsya pratama."

Gila kayaknya gue gabakal kuat nih. Tidur deh. Ngantuk banget T_T

Byeee sya.
We will meet again in the different world different dimention different air. Until then, semoga kamu masih ingat saya ya sya. Loveyou. (haha I'm actually hoping that you'd reply my love word like you always did.)

Thank you for letting me holding on to you for all those times.


Astrid L